Wednesday, May 30, 2012
LET ME INTRO MY NEW ENG NAME. WAHAHA.
Its Cramel Ang.
Hahaha this is initiated from matrix's law!!! Ok, crazy over for math for years..so its time to name myself after some math name, HEHEHE. I THINK ITS COOL YOH.
People calls me caramel,camel ok whatever it is,its still CRAMEL ok!!
Life's pretty stressful..went for an interview last week tgt w kor and clandra.
Only i got successfully hired. This is scary.
I am regretting so i just asked if kfp wants me back and then i might just go bk to help my chefs!
TESTS AH TEST, PROJECTS AH PROJECTS.
Stop adding stress in my life.
Getting emotionally upset these days cos of school. =(
Well,at least there's still happy stuffs~
YK stood beside me like so closely on mon's training. heh heh. (today i skip!!)
Then ET gave me his num...so we're like just smsing randomly.
He's really such a nice guy. Cos he's like the first who won't mind where im from but still willing to share with me so much things about him.
Real appreciate and thankful to have a senior like him! :D
Lastly, i want to say , I LOVEEEE TO RANT. LOLOKTHXBYE
TIME FOR PICTURES from lukas's dslr on class bbq last week! ^^
posted by Xin Yi on 10:16 PM
Thursday, May 24, 2012
So basically, Tuesday had class BBQ at boris's condo!
Mr Ang joined us in the later part as well(BUT HE WAS JUST IN TIME)
We spent like 3 hours just to start the fire. Epic fail.
Though i was a girl guide, i didn't learn how to set a fire. Hahaha so the guys did the job and it failed.
We still bbq-ed forcefully.......................
Had fun playing cards, bonding session esp with gary, rhys and BT and of course TAKING PHOTOS. HEH. Many cool pics still in lukas's DSLR.
Oh ya,it was awkward when rhys asked if my eyecandy is ET. I was like ya..but its the past tense. HAHAH So BT actually knew him. Ok weird max. hahaha.
Drank a little of long island. Beatris went drunk................ poor girl.
Lucky i didn't try the hard liquor, though i really want to exp the drunk feeling. But 40% in shots were really too much. HAAHA...
Then jasmine's dad drove yilin and i home! :)
CCA ytd. I learnt many many knottinggs so much so that i forgot what i had been learning in guides for 4 years. No joke......
And then PT. It drained me,both mentally and physically :(((
Ran around whole sch,push ups,crunches,jumping jacks and then uphill run again.
I have no idea if i can survive for 3 years. We shall see........ =(
And then i feel so negative about myself.
I feel like im more stupid than the others,i am weak, i am not clever, i am not trying hard enough, I JUST DON'T FEEL GOOD ABOUT MYSELF.
In any ways,i think i lost myself to everyone.
Despite making the effort, somehow someone will just never give a fuck.
I miss all my friends but i know that my value in them has dropped significantly.
Just when i thought we could meet, it turns out to be disappointment.
So what for expressing my feelings to people when they won't care at all?
Is it really so hard to just keep one dearly closest bestest friend?
All the ones i used to have changed, gone for good and never coming back for me.
I know right. Perhaps i wasn't being a good friend,enough. I know.
I am just so sorry.
AXY, you're just a loner that nobody cares anymore...
posted by Xin Yi on 8:46 PM
Sunday, May 20, 2012
I know this is idiotic. HAHAHA
I must say i had an awesome weekend this week. SERIOUSLY.
It has been so long since i felt so happy,from the bottom of my heart! :)
Yesterday was way too GOOD~
Lunch w juni at just acia at ssc and met my dear CHEFS! <3
Then met sam,clandra and meihua and headed to bugis KFP! :D
We sat there all the way till ting jie and yiting knocked off!
After which,we went for famous desserts at the alley and then back to ssc teoheng for k with Juni & Ahwai!!!!!!!!! :D
SIMPLY AWESOME.
I know my singing was terrible,so i literally made a fool of myself to be the joker of the night!
HAHA DOING STUPID ACTIONS AND MAKING EVERYONE LAUGHED LIKE MAD - This is what im capable at least! HAHAHA
The kindship and bond i have for kungfu mates is really special. From staffs to chefs. hehehe.
Really love the company of every single one of them. =)
Today,i finished java and bcom assignments. Feeling accomplished.
Though i still have 4 projects UNTOUCHED =X Gosh.
Then went to jurong point~~~shopped and dined at crytsal jade! ^^
Long time since we ate at a restaurant so we ordered alot alot. HAHAH then dad was like"You all so hungry ah!!!"
HAHAHA BOO,HAD A GREAT DINNER W MY FAM <333
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CCA tmr. Not looking forward cos we have to be in swimming attire. This is awkward :(
But im looking forward to the week as im having class bbq on tues and meet ups with my lovely friends!!!!!! :D
I miss naval base badly..............Ms lee is pregnant...I wanna go back and visit her~ :)
WHY IS IT THAT ALL MY EYECANDIES ARE ATTACHED? :(
Life's sooooooo unfair. Or maybe im meant to just be a third party. Ok kidding......
WHY IS IT THAT ALL MY EYECANDIES ARE ATTACHED? :(
Life's sooooooo unfair. Or maybe im meant to just be a third party. Ok kidding......
That weird feeling i get when i feels happy to hear your voice from your sudden call.
But i know clearly, it will never mean something!
posted by Xin Yi on 9:31 PM
Thursday, May 17, 2012
Missing my girls badly,like seriously :((((((((((((((
They are my only dear ones in life now. Without them,i am nothing..................
So i wanna shout out loud that how much i love them and treasure them!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok back to topic.
Presented on tuesday...i personally think i did well :)
Eye contact and confidence! I DID IT.
The only thing that was terrible was that i cried when reaching conclusion.
I couldn't control my tears upon sharing mom's story w the class.
Beatris,siman and crystal cried too..and many ppl comfort me after that.
THANKS CLASSMATES for hearing me :)
Well,at least sharing the story i won't have to hide anymore. ITS HORRIBLE.
Ytd was the first day of ADC :D
Had fun but among friends i knew. HAHAHA
Well,really looking forward to the trainings and expeditions! :)
We only played games...swimming nxt week :O
Today,im overwhemled by the projects on hands.
2 are on-going. 2 more coming up after nxt week.
Tests and exams are also coming very soon.
I must say projects are really stressing. How do i even handle? :(
Jason is my partner for javascript project,WAHAHAH DEPEND ON HIM LIAO ^^
Today was a rather special date because one year ago,it was the happiest moment.
But things were bad a, year later.
I wished we could be friends but i know it won't be like before :(
Can i just add u back.......i don't know.
Kt mentioned that some tot we're tgt...even his mom tot we patched.
OK THIS IS AWKWARD, AHAHA.
But i guess its hard to be friends after breaking up,but somehow it was rather different with him!
Not only we're ex,we are real good friends today :)
Thankful to meet him in any way~~YPS FTW LAH HAHAHA
this is my partner!!!!!! :)
this is the cheeky evan who keeps bullying my patrick >:(
Life is getting fun in school~=)
I have wonderful pem,MR ANG.
I have wonderful classmates,BI1205 <3.
And thats what make up my day :)
posted by Xin Yi on 8:20 PM
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Lx came over to my she to stayover on fri^^
We were so hungry at night but had got no money to buy food. How pathetic. Ended up eating maggie.
Then we just chit chat and caught P.S I love you. Halfway,we decided to sleep. haha.
Met daddy for dinner as well ^^ miss him alot....hasn't interact for a long time :(
He was saying that he has lesser time for us now...aww.
Then met chen to acc her to cck.
Aiyo this bad girl brought me to meet some stranger again.
She told him the color im wearing and the next moment,i saw that small boi boi approaching me. LOL. Epic much cos this time round i didn't have a pillar to hide..unlike meeting that 22yr old guy -.-
So today!!
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
Mummy,you know i always love you and nobody can ever replace you...
Missing you always............ Hope you're doing well somewhere.
I looked up to the sky,hoping you can see me...... :(
Lunch w chen,kim,her mom and ah ma!
Aunty,thank you for always being so caring to me...treating me like a daughter too. Really appreciate! ^^
Met whole family for dinner. FINALLY A GATHERING!!! Love my fam alot alot!!! :)
First of all,
Xiao shen is pregnant!!! hehehe cant wait for a new born ANG FAMILY MEMBER!! YAYY~~
Babies are always cuteeeeeeee <3333
Secondly,
i spilled ice lemon tea on me..........damn it........so fucking gross cos my innerwear got it. zzz
NEXT,
Talked to xiaoshu abt my poly life too...hmm then he start telling me how to plan my future career.
Im only 17,so he was asking me to plan my route,what i want by 25.
It was really scary....can't imagine i aged SO FAST when the years pass!!
So now im thinking of taking a part-time course as CAT.
WELL........$$$$$ IS AN ISSUE.
Perhaps im gonna save my bursary money(if i can get) for my studies.
Kinda regret for not saving when i was working for 5months. I feel so wasted like srly.
LASTLY,
Presentation on tues. ME IS SO SCARED.
Memorised..just hope i won't stun and miss out a single point because my competitors for the theme is very strong..Besides,im the last speaker for my theme!! DAMN IT SIA LOL.
Havent got my formal outfit....jin jialat. Tmr shall go hunting. Sian.
GIFBOOM IS SO FUN!!!! :)
so that was my lame kor and me wahahas.
i think this bear is very cute ^^
posted by Xin Yi on 10:46 PM